Who do you think you are? After I gave you my time, my money, my life you say it's over? Oh no, let's set the record straight. I'm the one calling it quits. I'm tired of having to submit to you, yet you continuously remind me you're not my husband. I'm tired of having to drive over an hour to see you two, three times a week and you do nothing. I'm tired of feeling the residue of sin when I cross Sacramento city limits. Like a fool I let you sit and tell me about some girl you were obsessed with at your church and how you two would go out together. But in the same breath you told me it was okay because we weren't in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. I should have been done with you then, but like a young, dumb fool I stayed.
I'm tired of living with the regret of the decisions I made with you. You controlled me all in the name of the Lord. And I fell for it. Hard. I still don't feel strong enough to stand on my own two feet, but that's all about to change. I have a destiny to fulfill, and it obviously doesn't include you. You made that perfectly clear with your ultimatum email. It's time to move onward and upward. I'm breaking up with you forever. This is the closure we never had because you said we needed to not talk for a while, which turned into 4 years of unanswered questions. But it's all good. I've found someone that's willing to love me, not criticize me or fit me into his little mold. He gives me what I need and doesn't make me choose between him and my mother, family, school, or church. He supports me and doesn't forsake me. He doesn't love me just when it's convenient. It's becoming clear now. You were just for a season. He is forever. So thanks for the good memories, because there were some. But I am now officially breaking the ties to all guilt, shame, fear and disobedience that are tied to your name. I've gotta move on.
Simply put, I'm through with you. Goodbye.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
The Breakup Letter I Never Wrote But Should Have
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