There's a special bond formed within a group of people all struggling to stay awake for the sake of job security. You learn the ropes very quickly by developing a system aka methods to the madness.
Perks:
Peace and quiet. Well that's if you don't count the laboring mommies.
Pleasant co-workers.
Work efficiency.
Night differential.
Enjoying the sunrise on the drive home.
Home. Ahh...What a distant thought.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Upper Case Letter
My God is a big God. He's not the little 'g'. There's nothing little about Him.
There's nothing too hard for Him. Nothing He's not aware of. Nothing He hasn't planned for.
I can trust Him with all of me. And for that reason alone I live.
There's nothing too hard for Him. Nothing He's not aware of. Nothing He hasn't planned for.
I can trust Him with all of me. And for that reason alone I live.
Emotions Taking Me Over...
Today is the 100 day mark to the biggest day of my life. But worry wart me saw nothing but things unaccomplished. There are a lot of things pending, but I thank God for His word. It never fails. Today I choose to celebrate Your goodness and faithfulness toward me and Floyd. Our love exists only by Your hand and I am grateful for it.
God I am overwhelmed with losing weight, working two jobs, going to school, moving out and planning a wedding. But I trust that I can go forward with your plan because it's the plan I've submitted to your will. I know that I am blessed beyond measure because You love me beyond measure. Help me to see things the was You see them and cause me to walk in faith knowing You will give me the desires of my heart as I diligently seek you. In Jesus' name.
Amen.
God I am overwhelmed with losing weight, working two jobs, going to school, moving out and planning a wedding. But I trust that I can go forward with your plan because it's the plan I've submitted to your will. I know that I am blessed beyond measure because You love me beyond measure. Help me to see things the was You see them and cause me to walk in faith knowing You will give me the desires of my heart as I diligently seek you. In Jesus' name.
Amen.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Big Queen, Little Princess
I've noticed a change in myself over the past couple months. It's something that most people say happens inevitably and I figured since I'm so special, it wouldn't happen to me. But I'm not as different as I think.
I'm turning into my mother.
When you're young, that's a bad thing because all you see are the bad attributes of your parents. Not to mention the fact that we all want to be individuals and leave our own stamp on the world. But now I'm proud to be little Phyllis. She's strong, beautiful, accomplished, well respected and loved. My mom leaves a positive impression on all those she meets with her outgoing personality. She'll tell you like it T.I. is and still do anything she can to help you. And yes, sometimes she can be a little too harsh, but it's in love. I can't remember a time in my history where there hasn't been someone living with us, or someone she hasn't cooked for or given advice to. Someone she hasn't worried about or tried to help in some way. My mom loves and loves hard, often in spite of herself. I'm happy to have these traits, and I hope to continue to develop them so I can reach my life goal: changing the world. If I am partially blessed with the love, respect, and truth my mom has, my life will be worth living. Her sacrifices for me and her family are immeasurable. I am favored by God to have grown up to watch and participate in her life. Any other mother just wouldn't do!
Yes, sometimes I stop myself and laugh because I never knew it would happen. But now I'm happy it did. Thank you mommy, from the bottom of my heart.
I'm turning into my mother.
When you're young, that's a bad thing because all you see are the bad attributes of your parents. Not to mention the fact that we all want to be individuals and leave our own stamp on the world. But now I'm proud to be little Phyllis. She's strong, beautiful, accomplished, well respected and loved. My mom leaves a positive impression on all those she meets with her outgoing personality. She'll tell you like it T.I. is and still do anything she can to help you. And yes, sometimes she can be a little too harsh, but it's in love. I can't remember a time in my history where there hasn't been someone living with us, or someone she hasn't cooked for or given advice to. Someone she hasn't worried about or tried to help in some way. My mom loves and loves hard, often in spite of herself. I'm happy to have these traits, and I hope to continue to develop them so I can reach my life goal: changing the world. If I am partially blessed with the love, respect, and truth my mom has, my life will be worth living. Her sacrifices for me and her family are immeasurable. I am favored by God to have grown up to watch and participate in her life. Any other mother just wouldn't do!
Yes, sometimes I stop myself and laugh because I never knew it would happen. But now I'm happy it did. Thank you mommy, from the bottom of my heart.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Mister SupaStar Himself
Hanging out on Facebook today and came across an article and video link in my news feed. Guess who it was? Rob aka SupaStar City aka City P aka my high school ex.
WOW!!
I was truly speechless. Not in the bad way, of course, but I was sent down memory lane circa 2002. It's so interesting to see that although our worlds collided for quite sometime, our lives look so different today. I'm happy that he's achieving and making things happen. He's always been a talented writer. Very creative. And always had the desire to express himself lyrically. Obviously, we've both moved on with our lives, but when I look at him, I don't see the same person from 2002. Not in a bad way. Just different. Cultivated. Seasoned. Grown up. 2002 doesn't equal 2010, but that's okay. I think in the process of 8 years we've both learned to just do you. And it's paid off.
Would he have been living this dream if I were still in the picture? Probably not. But then again, that's probably why I'm not in the picture. I love my life, he loves his life, and I respect him for it. Always have and always will. And I wish him the best.
To life and love. God bless you Rob!
WOW!!
I was truly speechless. Not in the bad way, of course, but I was sent down memory lane circa 2002. It's so interesting to see that although our worlds collided for quite sometime, our lives look so different today. I'm happy that he's achieving and making things happen. He's always been a talented writer. Very creative. And always had the desire to express himself lyrically. Obviously, we've both moved on with our lives, but when I look at him, I don't see the same person from 2002. Not in a bad way. Just different. Cultivated. Seasoned. Grown up. 2002 doesn't equal 2010, but that's okay. I think in the process of 8 years we've both learned to just do you. And it's paid off.
Would he have been living this dream if I were still in the picture? Probably not. But then again, that's probably why I'm not in the picture. I love my life, he loves his life, and I respect him for it. Always have and always will. And I wish him the best.
To life and love. God bless you Rob!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Wedding's in the Air...
Don't know why, but I'm starting to get excited about the wedding again!! All the little pieces are starting to come together and all the parts are becoming whole. I'm still nervous that something's gonna go wrong, but hey, you can't control everything. 112 days my friends. Hope to see you there!!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Say No To Your Brain
Praise God for the ability to reason and think, but sometimes I feel the need to turn this thing off. Too often the best things happen for me when I move out of my own way and just live.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Street Fighter
Depression is rampant!!
Let's all just give the devil a karate kick to the chest and stop believing His lies!! Maybe it bothers me because I know what it feels like to be pinned down by depression. You feel weak and worthless. Then it becomes all you know and living a normal life at that point is abnormal.
But enough is enough!! I don't want to play with the devil anymore. And I know that makes me a target for the enemy's camp, but it's time to strap up and fight because the slow and painful death I'm watching your soul go through is killing me oh so softly.
God help me to be more than I am today. Even as I battle for my own life help me to fight for the lives of those around me. Open my mouth to declare your word and push back the hand of the enemy. I need strength, courage and boldness.
Let's all just give the devil a karate kick to the chest and stop believing His lies!! Maybe it bothers me because I know what it feels like to be pinned down by depression. You feel weak and worthless. Then it becomes all you know and living a normal life at that point is abnormal.
But enough is enough!! I don't want to play with the devil anymore. And I know that makes me a target for the enemy's camp, but it's time to strap up and fight because the slow and painful death I'm watching your soul go through is killing me oh so softly.
God help me to be more than I am today. Even as I battle for my own life help me to fight for the lives of those around me. Open my mouth to declare your word and push back the hand of the enemy. I need strength, courage and boldness.
MCI Commercial
Do I really want to reach out and touch your hand? My actions at this point say no, but I feel obligated to do so. Matter of fact, it's my duty. What good am I to have been blessed with the knowledge of God and His word, yet hoard understanding for me and mine? That's straight up wrong. And I'm sorry. To both God and you.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
My Own Worst Critic
Is it because I have such high expectations for myself or the fact that I really don't have what it takes? Either way, I'm failing in my own book and I'm pretty pooped about it. Everything isn't bad, but life is about quality in my book. I have to do a better job of not only challenging myself, but motivating myself to follow through. I'm the only one that loses when I don't.
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