Getting Caught Up

Today while I was thinking about some things that have been heavy on my heart, I decided to do something I haven't done in a long time. I began to declare the word of God over my life and the situation.

"God I thank you for your faithfulness. I prayed for Your will to be done and I trust that you will show Yourself strong. You love me and Your word over me is yes and amen. I have the victory and I will overcome because greater is He that is in me than He that is in the world."

It's something about stopping and thinking about who God is and what He's done that just changes the atmosphere.

Then I had to take it to Rene's version of Lord You are Awesome. When you hit that bridge, you just fly.

Nobody like you Lord...My Friend, deliverer, my healer, way maker...You are Awesome!!

Getting caught up with God has no special recipe. You have to just learn to let go. So no matter what comes, I'm learning to put a praise right there, because my God never fails.

Yield to Oncoming Traffic

Moving to Walnut Creek is a huge blessing to me. But I am realizing that blessings can be attached to challenges. I know I can be stuck in my ways and I'm not the best when it comes to change. This time I want things to be different, though. Usually when I'm presented with a challenge I run the other way. Quite willingly I might add. But as I learn what it means to be a mature woman of character and integrity, I have to be willing to take the good with the bad. In learning the differences, I am learning more about me.

No matter how difficult, I am holding fast to where God has me because the best place to be is in the will of God.

Happy Trails to You...Hope We Meet Again

I started my first week at Kaiser Walnut Creek after getting a transfer from Kaiser Santa Clara. And although I wanted to be closer to home, I didn't want to leave SCL. God, can't you just pickup the hospital and transplant it 50 miles closer to home, please (yes, I was a driving fool!)?

I do miss my Kaiser SCL family, but I am sure that I have something to do in Walnut Creek. My goal is to be a blessing wherever I am. I wish and pray blessings to all my girls in SCL. Jo-Jo, Sherry, Irene, Trix, and all the rest of the lovely ladies that make up admitting. God bless you until we meet again!

What Do I Want to Be When I Grow Up?

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Well Done, Please

As I was driving to work today I started thinking about all the things I'd left undone in my life. Relationships, life issues, school projects. All of these together make up some jacked up patch quilt that has done nothing but leave me cold and lonely for so long. The monster under my bed is fear, and it's kept me from finishing things. I'm tired of eating the rare done meat of life, thinking time will change things. It doesn't work, though, because I end up sick every time.

I'm ready for my soul to be well. Been ready for a long time. I've been balancing on one foot as the other prepares to take the step into big girl-hood, but my apprehensions keep me back and unsteady.

I ready to partake in some well done meat. Can you stop by and help me cook?

The Love Day

Let me first send a shout out to all my single people out there, feeling pressured to get a temporary boo for 24 hours or less. Coming from someone who lived the single life, fight the powers that be. Today will be over before you know it.

As for all the others (and the single people who aren't hating) I was surprised with a Vday gift from my lover. I thought we decided on doing nothing this year to save money, but he got me something anyway. I think I whined one too many times and he gave in. The trip, though, was that I had actually become okay (about 1022 Saturday morning 02/13) with not getting anything.

But to stay true to the blog, allow the love of God to hold your heart. That is real love. Don't settle for the substitutes. And when He's done loving on you, love Him back. He deserves all of it and more.

Happy Vday to the one I adore.
My beloved. My amour.

The Game of Love

Love has stages. Sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's hard. Sometimes it's fun and sometimes it's a chore. Sometimes it's a whole bunch of stuff mixed together. But either way, through laughs or tears, it is a blessing.

Know that if you care enough to show your love to those around you, it changes their lives for the better. Stay in the game. All who play with true love are winners in the end, no matter the outcome.

Coming Into My Own

I've been hiding behind the shadows of others for quite a while, letting them do the thinking and talking for me. I'm starting to feel like my words, my presence actually matters. Instead of being passive-aggressive, I just want to be normal. If it's a spade, it's a spade. And I'm gonna tell it. I'm ready to stand on my own to feet and show the world what Niesha Nicole is made of!

Making Time Count

I went to one of my fav fast food restaurants last week (Panda) and received a nice note from my fortune cookie. Okay, I know you're probably already pleading the blood, but listen. So the fortune cookie read, "Instead of counting your time, you should make your time count."

BAM!!

So although I may still be watching the clock (149, thank you very much), there's so much that's still left undone. I've gotta make these last days count. Getting stuff done for the wedding is one thing, but getting my life right is the way I choose to make my time count. Getting healthy, praying, studying, start back fasting. All the things I need to do to not just believe I can be a good wife, but living the good wife life.